Yes that's how I read it, at least. But that's a common result of short comments - unless we write entire essays (which I certainly won't be doing lol), misunderstandings are just gonna happen. I'm sorry you were so stressed out at that time. I've been there, though my coping mechanism is retreating inward, and I hope you don't have to experience that again.does it read that way? it was more like 10 or 20 a day. As much as i wanted. (i was super stressed out at the time working with neglected kids..so my brain was in hyperalert mode as i mentioned earlier).
Your non-woo version is much more interesting to me from a psychological standpoint than the woo version.