I'm going to be completely honest with you folks for a second and I'm opening up here so please go easy on me. A few years back I was one of the CTer's that you guys all speak so highly of, as if our intelligence and social skills are retarded making us incapable of change or understanding the facts at hand. That isn't the case, and I'm a prime example of this.One odd thing about CTers is that they spout "facts" which are wrong, like: "Huge difference between contrails and chemtrails". They are just SURE they have research on their side. It's sort of an automatic insult to tell them their "facts" are wrong. No way around that.
My story started 3yrs ago when my oldest daughter came home from school one day asking me questions about the end of the world, and whether or not any of it was true. So naturally like any father would do, I told her it was ridiculous and to pay no mind to any of that scare mongering. Well it turns out her friends were into this stuff, now mind you she was 15 at the time and in high school. A few days later she would ask me about Nibiru or planet x, and that was followed by the Mayan bs. It seemed like every time she came home from school she brought home a new world ending story. So like any good father I decided to go on the net to research this crap so that I could come back to Trish with solid and conclusive evidence for the contrary.
Well thats where the story of my run in with CTers starts. To my ignorance, I've never researched using the internet before unless I was looking up something to buy, or to watch videos my wife probably wouldn't want me watch. So I had no idea about the predators out there who were spewing this garbage.
I began to research Nibiru, Planet X, UFO's, ancient aliens, and the Mayan calendar, and instead of walking away with a wealth of knowledge to discuss with my daughter, I spent the entire night up biting my finger nails, smoking cigarettes in utter despair. I was freaked out to say the least. Now mind you, I'm not the sharpest tool in the shed, but I'm by no means the dullest tool. But I was duped. I made the mistake of watching youtube videos of Nibiru and Planet x, I saw Nibiru pass by the Antarctic Science lab, and I was a full blown believer. In conjunction with watching the Ancient Aliens special on the H2 channel, my life was full of all this garbage. I obviously was lying to my daughter by telling her it was all nonsense and there was nothing to worry about, but the whole time I'm full of anxiety and thinking about my kids and wife dying at the end of 2012.
I really believed in all of this crap, but the whole time I believed I was also a closet believer. Meaning no one in my life, friends or family knew I was going through this. I guess somewhere inside of me was telling me it was utter horse shit, otherwise I wouldn't have been embarrassed to discuss this. Finally, I had enough, and this was a good 6 months later probably. I started typing the word "debunk" in front of all the things was worried about. Which brought me to several forums. Some that spewed the nonsense, and others that debunked it. Initially, I was one of those hard heads trying to gather the facts and not listening to reason while doing so. I had scientist from NASA'a "ask a scientist" page, Bill Hudson, and others helping me through my struggles, and suddenly a light turned on inside my head, and I started helping others with similar issues and it was dignifying.
So I wouldn't give up on all CTer's out there, at least the ones who don't profit from it. There are plenty of open minded individuals waiting to learn the truth. I'm a walking example of it. So take it easy on the CTer's and realize not all of them are closed minded and willfully stupid. Its affected even the most intelligent of people, so keep that in mind all.